what u want..

ever think about how what u rly want something ends up being something u don't rly want. like as a kid i use to get alot of toys and stuff. and when i got what i wanted i got bored with it and put it to the side. i guess if i knew the value of a dollar then i would have appreciated it more and would want to play with it. i think that's how life goes. u get something u wanted for free or next to nothing.. or it just pops up on ur lap and u finally use it or do whatever with it. and then u no longer want it. and u look for something else. So im sitting here thinking about my childhood and what i had gotten as a child. and to think of it i was rly spoiled rotten. i wouldn't have gotten away with being a smart ass lil kid. but if i wanted a toy i would most likely get it. it's kinda the same thing now. if i wanna buy something for my car.. my dad would ask me if i want him to spot me the money and pay him back. i've done that a couple of times but it's mostly for shit that i rly would want. and for the most part i know what i want. i just don't get what i want cause i can't afford it. so i do with what i have. and try and make the best of it. like right now i just got a bunch of shit done to my car. i bought the lowering kit for it cause i wanted to lower my car. but now im starting to regret only because it does more good than bad. i can barely get out my own driveway.. but it looks soo bad ass. and im sure when winter arrives im gonna hate the snow. I also got a system for my car that i got 4 free. sounds so bad ass. and i got a couple other stuff for my car. did i want that and was willing to pay 4 them? yes. now that i have them it's like whatever. It's like they say. u only appreciate something when u lose it.

my florida experience.

So i mostly went done cause i wanted to make my car stick shift. I went down and go there on a saturday. Me and my dad stayed at a hotel so we can be more comfortable. My brother in law left us his lexus sc300! which i love to drive. it's fast as hell. when i was able to drive it i would make that shit go sidewayz! lol =) so much fun. I drove his car for about 3 days til my car was finally a 6spd! and now it hauls ass! lol it's crazy. I also got a few other things done to my car. I got 2 12inch piooneer subs. and a 2000watt amp! that shit hits hard! sounds good too. lowered my car for about $120. went out to dinner with the whole family. a total of 7 of us. lol i paid cause my brother in law didn't want any money. so i took us all out 2 dinner to thank him. got him whatever he wanted.. whether it be beer.. gas.. and cigs. spent alot on that. went too a bunch of strip clubs. got lap dances. and was offered a private room by this rly hot stripper. which i soon found out later that she was a porn star! =O all in all! i had an amazing time. i got what i wanted with my car... spent time with my brother in law. and we had deep conversations. and i got to know what he went thro when he was younger. and boy did he go thro alot. he basicly went thro everything u could think of! so me and him bonded more so i was happy! =) i also got to see my sister and my neices and nephews! and damn they're getting big. i gotta say couple more yrs and they might end up taller than their own uncle! =/ But it was an amazing time. and im glad i went and saved up all that money even tho it tired me out. it was well worth it!

getting older..

He was a kid then… he didn’t even know what to do.
He’s all grown up now and doesn’t even care what you knew.
A young man on his way to becoming successful.
He’s on a journey called life which most people have failed to accomplish.
I’m only 21 and I’ve gotten farther in life than you have wished!
I’m onto bigger and better things.. life going to get a little harder now.
Wish I’ve done things a little differently.. but that’s all about growing and learning.
You just look at me and see a man becoming.
The cars, money, the girls all mean nothing to kid.. all unreal to him.. and just an illusion.
But wait. He’s found the thing that’s gonna make everything right … a conclusion

Here it is..


THE END