what u want..

ever think about how what u rly want something ends up being something u don't rly want. like as a kid i use to get alot of toys and stuff. and when i got what i wanted i got bored with it and put it to the side. i guess if i knew the value of a dollar then i would have appreciated it more and would want to play with it. i think that's how life goes. u get something u wanted for free or next to nothing.. or it just pops up on ur lap and u finally use it or do whatever with it. and then u no longer want it. and u look for something else. So im sitting here thinking about my childhood and what i had gotten as a child. and to think of it i was rly spoiled rotten. i wouldn't have gotten away with being a smart ass lil kid. but if i wanted a toy i would most likely get it. it's kinda the same thing now. if i wanna buy something for my car.. my dad would ask me if i want him to spot me the money and pay him back. i've done that a couple of times but it's mostly for shit that i rly would want. and for the most part i know what i want. i just don't get what i want cause i can't afford it. so i do with what i have. and try and make the best of it. like right now i just got a bunch of shit done to my car. i bought the lowering kit for it cause i wanted to lower my car. but now im starting to regret only because it does more good than bad. i can barely get out my own driveway.. but it looks soo bad ass. and im sure when winter arrives im gonna hate the snow. I also got a system for my car that i got 4 free. sounds so bad ass. and i got a couple other stuff for my car. did i want that and was willing to pay 4 them? yes. now that i have them it's like whatever. It's like they say. u only appreciate something when u lose it.